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Racheli's Thoughts



 Thoughts and Reflections by Racheli Muchnik, in loving memory of her brother Rabbi Ariel Rav-Noy, of blessed memory.

Smile & Laugh

 

I missed Ariel a lot today. How will I smile and laugh this Purim? I wrote this in the hope that it will help me…


bab.jpgI tip-toe into the children's room early in the morning. My 2-year-old is sound asleep. It is time for me to take her older siblings to school, so I need to wake her and bring her to the car. I feel so bad to interrupt such a peaceful and deep sleep!

I whisper her name and a sweet smile forms on her lips. Her eyes haven’t even opened! Yet she smiles subconsciously…   What an innocent and carefree way to wake up! 

I wonder what she is so happy about this early in the morning…

I look into the eyes of my babybaby.jpg.  I am feeling too rushed and overwhelmed to smile. Yet just making eye contact with me brings a huge smile on his face, as he flaps his arms excitedly. 

I wonder what he’s so excited about…

My big girl comes home from a two day sleep-over that she had at her friend’s home. She runs into my arms, giving me a tight and joyful hug. She spontaneously bursts out into Bracah Gittel Leba Muchnik.JPGcontagious and care-free laughter!

I wonder what she is so ecstatic about…

Did I used to smile and laugh like that? With such ease, and for no particular reason? 

I think we all did at some point. Joy is the natural state for a human being, afterall. It’s just that life “happens” and all of this “stuff” comes our way, making it so much more of a challenge to smile and laugh freely. 

How do we go back to that? How can I restore that natural, innocent and care-free joy and peace? 

Az yemaley schok pinu” – Dovid Hamelech prophesizes in Psalms about a time when joyful laughter will fill our mouths. This is the time of Redemption, when our natural joy will be restored. 

There has got to be a way to attain that feeling now, in preparation for that glorious time. 

Perhaps I can follow my children’s lead?

Perhaps if I practice a little bit of humility I can succeed?

Can I feel peaceful and content before my eyes  even open in the morning, praising Hashem for another day of life?

Can I look deep into the eyes of someone I love and share a soulful smile?

Can I embrace a friend and laugh freely? 

If I did it at some point in my life, I must be able to do it again. 

I want to smile until the entire Universe will smile along with me.

I want to laugh until the entire Universe will laugh along with me.

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Rise Like a Lion!

 

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My brother Ariel's favorite song, titled Shir HaGeulah (Song of the Redemption), has been in my head since he left us.  

My brother learned this melody from Rabbi Yisroel Gordon one summer in "Yeshiva Camp", Morristown New Jersey.  He sang it often, with much enthusiasm and enunciation of each word and turn in its intricate melody.  His whole being swayed to the tune, filled with yearning for better times.

The song was composed and sung by the Chassidim who escaped the war and found themselves in Shanghai, China, in the 1940's. During those dark, bitter and lonely days, they wondered what had become of their loved ones.  They would hear about their home-towns being wiped out, taking away their families forever - and without even a date to mark as "yartzeit" because of all the unknowns....

I can just picture the singing, the yearning.  This soulful melody expresses their deep desire to reunite with their family and with their Rebbe.  A desire to escape to a more familiar world, where they can truly celebrate their faith in peace.  And I can picture the joyous ending of this song, with a room filled with hope and trust in better times.  

The lyrics of this song were printed in "Hakriya VeHakedusha" - a periodical magazine edited by the Previous Chabad Rebbe.  There are those who say that the lyrics of this song were written by the Previous Rebbe himself!  When this song was sung at Farbrengens, our Rebbe cherished it very much.   

The one line that replays in my head again and again, and the line that we all loved singing together with Ariel is "Ariel yakum kelavi"- "Ariel will rise like a lion"...  In this context - the Holy Temple is referred to as a lion (as brought down in the Talmud).  The Temple resembled a lion- in its glory.  And the word Ariel means 'lion of Hashem'. 

My husband and Ariel were study-partners in yeshiva.  The boys would often sing that verse playfully when Ariel would come in.  Sometimes Dov would wake up Ariel in the mornings with those words "Ariel yakum kelavi" - Ariel rise like a lion!

Ariel was a lion!  He was a gentle yet giant and powerful soul!  And all I could think about as I witnessed his burial was "Just wait and see everyone, Ariel will rise like a lion....!" - He will join us and sing for us again with the coming of Moshiach!  

The words are so special, they speak for themselves. 

I feels like Hashem, in His kindness, prepared this song for us (through Ariel's love for this song) so we can sing it now when we need it most.  

The words fill me with hope...

Hachayenu kel - Please G-d!  Let us live to see the time when our redeemer will reveal himself!  

Give us strength UNTIL he comes! 

And then we will talk about it - in past tense - about the difficulties we experienced while still in exile.  

The song ends with "In the third redemption we will be found living"

Yes!  We need to live!  

Live forever!  Abba live forever!  Imma live forever!  We need you forever!  The Rebbe told us that this generation - the seventh generation since the founding of Chabad Chassidus - is the generation that will march towards the final Redemption!  "Chayim nitzchiim bli hefsek" - everlasting life without interruption.  It may seem like we've had an interruption here...  Yet somehow we still believe and pray.  

Ariel yakum!  Rise Ariel!  


 

You can listen to this special melody, sung by Rabbi Yisroel Gordon, Ariel's teacher, by clicking here

I am thankful to my brother-in-law Rabbi Yosef Muchnik who wrote meaningful words to this powerful tune, to honor Ariel.  

Click here to see a video of him singing it at the Evening of Tribute we had last night.  Words below. 

 

Ariel Hachai

A giant man
A Talmud chacham
So filled with wisdom
Depth that was matched by none
His sensitive nature so sweet and so rare
His care for others truly beyond compare
 
His children and wife he adored
To him their life meant the world
A father to them so special he was
His attention and devotion stood above
 
Ariel yakum kelavi
His smile we'll once again see
On that day he will sing a song with eight notes
Filling heart and soul with high hopes
 
Hashem Hashem keyl rachum
Oh why take a father so young
Bring him back to his children
Vehaishiv es aviv el banim
Tirachem of zayna kinder
Far zi es iz zeir finster
 
They can't take one second longer
The pain gets stronger and stronger
Send Tatty back to us soon
The pain fills up too much room
  
Soon this pain will end
Moshiach will descend
Tears of sorrow replaced by joy instead instead
 
And then we will sing 
And dance once again
With Ariel our father and our friend
 
Then Ariel you will know
Why the tears all had to flow
The reasons clear once and for all
The Galus dream unmasked
No more questions asked
Hashem's glory revealed to all
 
A great simcha it will be
So many loved ones you will see
May it happen right away here tonight,
Oh what a sight
The joy will be so strong
We’ll know it was all wrong
We'll wake up from this dream that took so long
 
They will run into your arms
Mendy, Chani, Levi, Shaina, Sarala
Hindy, Avremele, Miriam, Abba and Ima too,
It will be soon
Dark will turn to light
The Mikdosh built on site
The Rebbe biroyshainu, bimhera viyameinu! 
 

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He Left Me With Hope

 

 One of the first things I did the night after my brother Ariel passed away was search my email for our previous exchanges. I found the most recent one, from one week before his sudden passing.

 On Sunday morning, I had emailed him a question, as I so often did while preparing for a class.  I was preparing to teach my students a Parsha class the next day. 

 “Hey Ariel, I’ve heard the phrase of "murgen vet zain gur andresh" - where is that from?  A story/anecdote?” 

I had heard the phrase used amongst Chassidim, encouraging each other to make resolutions, make tomorrow a better day.  It translates as “tomorrow will be totally different”. 

Whenever I needed something sourced, I’d check in with Ariel – he seemed to get me answers faster than any other web-based search engine could. 

He didn’t let me down this time. 

A few minutes later, I received a response:

 “Reb Zushe of Anipole would say it every night in Kriyas Shema Al Hamita [the evening Shema prayer]. But then he would challenge himself - "But Zushe, you said that last night?!" And then he would respond to himself - "But tonight I MEAN IT!"

And the tradition continued:  The Chassidishe Temimim (students) in the Yeshivah in Lubavitch would also say it during Kriyas Shema Al Hamita.

So I heard from a Mashpia [mentor] in Yeshivah in Kfar Chabad 20 years ago.  (And at that Farbrengen he said it too!)”

 I was so excited by his detailed and speedy reply, so I immediately responded:

“Ahhhh - Ariel I love you - you're the best !  :-)

This is perfect! 

I almost gave up on finding out the details…”

 

Before I hit send, I was about to delete the words “I love you”.  Not sure why – I guess it suddenly felt awkward.  But then I decided to leave it.  I thought to myself, “How often do I verbalize that to him?  When was the last time I told him I loved him?”  So I left it.  I never imagined that it would be my last opportunity to say those words to him before his passing. 

 

I am grateful for the opportunity I had to let him know that I loved him and appreciated him. 

 

Each day that passes, the pain grows stronger and deeper.  As the shock slowly lifts, and the bitter reality begins to sink in, I feel an eerie emptiness in my heart.  During the day – I keep busy, the children make me laugh, and I feel I can move forward.  But at night, the heavy emotions rise.  It’s a roller-coaster of feelings!  Sadness for the loss.  Emptiness because I feel a part of me has died.  Endless tears for his wife Miriam.  Guilt over not having made more opportunities to enjoy the time we had him.  Embarrassment over not strengthening our relationship more.  Grief.  Confusion because I’m not sure why it hurts so much if this doesn’t affect my daily life like it does for his wife and children.  Frustration with people who don’t acknowledge my pain (although I don't blame them for not quite knowing how to).  Irritability at 'small-talk' and happy faces.  Guilt to be alive.  An overall heaviness and sadness that is not possible to put into words…

 

So I pull out his last email.  And it helps.  He is talking to me!  He is reminding me of something so important – and so easy to forget during this tough time;  Murgen vet zain gur andresh – tomorrow will be COMPLETELY DIFFERENT.  It is going to be so much better!!!  As black as this night feels – I have a crystal clear bright morning awaiting me.  Life will be better.  People around me will be better. I will be better.  True, I said that last night, but tonight I really mean it!! 

 

One morning, we will all wake up to the incredible news - to the final Geulah – the final Redemption.  That morning will come right after a night as black as tonight feels. 

 

Tomorrow will be so different.  Tomorrow Moshiach will be here.

 

Ariel – thank you for leaving me with words of hope.  

 

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My Nephew Mendy

 

At the conclusion of the seven days of traditional mourning, my neice Chanie asked if we can take her to daven (pray) at her "Tatty's Kever" (her father's resting place).  In the last moment, my nephew Mendy asked if he can join as well.  

What happened next is something I will NEVER be able to put into words.  You just need to see if for yourself... 

Below is a link to the video we posted moments after it took place.  It is my nephew Mendy helping put Tefillin on a fellow Jew (a driver for Paris Hilton!).  

Facebook and What'sapp went wild with this post! 

 Within 2 minutes there was 232 views. 

Within 1 hour there were 576 views.

Within 1 day over 9,000 views.

Is that what they call "going viral"...?  ;-) 

Moments like this help me believe.

Look how fast Goodness can spread!

Just as fast we can have the Ultimate Goodness we are all waiting for...

Click on the image and enjoy!

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Ariel's Mikvah

 

We've been sitting here at the last night of Shiva, thinking about what would be the most meaningful way to honor Ariel, and bring him back immediately to his wife Miriam and his beautiful children with the coming of Moshiach today.

As it turns out, there was a cause that was closest to Ariel's heart... a campaign that he recently started...a cause that (we are now finding out) he gave significantly to.

We would like to help complete the project that Ariel began.

"Ariel's Mikvah" will be built in Humboldt County, where Ariel's sister-in-law and her husband, Rabbi Eli and Mushkie Cowen run the Chabad Center. 

Ariel lived his life with the awareness of TRUE REALITY, that G-d runs the world. Like fish in the sea - who are so aware of their source of life - (water), a person who is purified by the waters of mikvah - taps into the "truth".

The countless couples that are ready to use a Mikvah in Humboldt County, embracing the mitzvah of Family Purity and bringing G-dly truth into their lives, in Ariel's honor, would be a comfort beyond belief to his wife Miriam and the entire family.

To donate: www.ArielsMikvah.com

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